10.3.09
00:49 ● I'm DISGUSTED.

08 March
As usual, went to teach my cousin tuition on Sundays.
He, as usual, doesn't want to do his homeworks and corrections. Maybe my expectations for him are too high. Here are the things I hope that he will be able to do:-
1. Do his homeworks and corrections.
2. Be more focused and use his brains.
3. Be more considerate and understanding towards, not his parents, but EVERYONE he knows.
4. Be responsible for his own actions.
I couldn't help it but broke down, after begging him to do his homework, and later (bo bian) using violence on him. I told him to finish one of his corrections(rewriting a compositon-400 words) in 15 mins, just copy the whole thing from one piece of paper to another. He said ok, and continued his Youtube-ing on the lappy. After 20+mins, only a sentence or two is completed. In the end, after I stared at him for don't know how many times for not focusing, he completed the essay in around an hour plus. By the time, it was already lunch time. He said he wants to go downstairs to buy things, so I went to eat my lunch.
After lunch, he continued Youtube-ing and Friendster-ing. I managed to get him to do a few pages of his Science Theory WB corrections, which is good. So I let him relax a bit, continue his lappy business, while I checked on his other homeworks. Found somemore to be done, so I had to drag him back into reality as I realised if he doesn't start and constantly do his homeworks till dinner time, he wouldn't be able to finish. And all his homeworks were accumulated throughout the week and were to be handed on Monday. (=.= & he didn't touch even one of them.)
In between that period of time when I dragged him away from the lappy to do his homeworks, he did some(which is good), and requested for rest after awhile. At first was toilet break, he said he'd be done in 3mins, and he came out after 10mins. =.=# Fine. And he continued with some questions, then he went to drink Milo, eat biscuits, etc. His progress was getting slower and his rest time was increasing =.=##.
He wouldn't focus, I can keep repeating the same thing and even tell him the answer right into his face and he can still ask me, "Then? What's the answer?" #=.=## In the end, when doing the maths worksheet, I was trying to guide him to think, but he doesn't want to use his brains, too lazy to even write down the steps, and just waiting for me to give him the answer, and he would simply write it down. At the fourth question, I didn't want to tell him the answer, I tell him to calculate himself. He calculated wrongly and I told him it was wrong. Then he doesn't want to think anymore. Just sit down there, blankly stare at the paper, ignoring whatever I say. He just wants the answer. Then after few minutes, he just walk away like nobody's business.
Of course I would be angry! I travelled from CCK all the way to Punggol, waking up at 8am in the morning, when I can sleep until my buttocks chao-da! I beg him, persuade him, pull his shirt, beat him, give him rest time...you know what is 软硬兼施? No matter what I do he just doesn't want to use his brains and THINK! For who and why am I doing this? For the f**king $150/mth(4 lessons)? Who dares to take people's money for free? There's no free lunch on Earth, hulllllo! I get paid, and I'm supposed to do my job! A teacher is there to guide, not to provide answers! Since he doesn't like my lessons, I go home. Since he can walk away like nobody's business, why should I 牵就 him and wait for him to come back, when he may not even come back! I crushed his worksheets and slammed his book on the floor(this is obviously bad example, peeps don't learn!), and I went straight out of his godd**n house. I know this is very irresponsible, you can hate me to the core if you want to after you read this post and I DON'T CARE! I'm his tutor, not his maid or whoever that needs him! It's his life, his studies and his future. If he wants to throw it away, I can't stop him. I've done whatever I can so I know my conscience is clear. It's not as if I've not made any efforts to help him. I'll continue to teach him though. Just that I wouldn't have any expectations on him anymore.

09 March
Bad day for me. Cus' it was a bad start. Was going to Cineleisure KBox with Maureen, and everytime we go Orchard together it rains. =.=
The day before(08Mar) I asked my sis how to go Cine, she told me one stop after FarEastPlaza. Then today morning when she woke up, she told me the stop at NgeeAnnCity. To her, more ways to go = better. And she knows NgeeAnnCity is right after the one stop after FarEast, which she assumes that I know too. But for me, NgeeAnnC in my impression, is very very far from FarEast. So I got confused. And because of yesterday's incident, plus it was in the morning, my temper was bad. So I raised my voice. then after much arguments, I found out that I was running late, so I just ignored her and left the room. Afterwards when I was in the toilet, Maureen called my house phone and my grandpa answered so he called my name, which I didn't hear. Then my sis knocked at the toilet door to call me. She was stepping on almost the whole piece of the rug, so I tried to aim for the pathetic little piece as my feet were wet. So I accidentally bumped into her, and she thinks that I did it purposely. =.=# Hulllllllllllllllo! I'm running late! How would I be so stupid to waste my time thinking of "revenging" on you! Then of course she wasted my precious time again, confronting me, "你现在又在发什么脾气?"...=.=## 我又不是吃饱闲着没事干找架吵! Lazy to talk to her, grabbed my things and went out.
Cus' both me and Maureen were unsure where to get off the bus, we went to ask the bus driver, whether that current stop is where we're supposed to get off. He said he was unsure and just as I was intending to call Maureen and get off at that stop, that stupid bus driver drove off! He even skipped a stop after that! We had to walk all the way back(2 bus stops!). I had blisters cus of my new shoes. =.=##(Wear the wrong shoe!)
And today's experience at KBox was bad too, so decided not to say. Then went back home after eating KFC and shopping with Maureen. At first, me and my sis were still ok, still can chat. Then as we chat, don't know somehow the topic became the "Where to get off at Cineleisure?" again! Then she say, "So it's not my fault right?" =.='" I said, " Ya, it's not your fault." in that kind of "diao face"(rolling eyeballs). Then she thinks that I'm just trying to fool her so that I can get off that topic. So, as usual, she tries to explain to me why it's not her fault, when I already knew! Of course I'll be pissed off and walk away. Then she not happy with me again lor. Hmph! Who cares lah! Typical woman, tell her the truth she doesn't want to believe; don't give her the respond she wants, she'll keep arguing with you till she's satisfied with your answer and EXPRESSION while responding. *BLOOD BOIL* What can I do?

So sian... Tomorrow going to library, sick and tired of these things and sickening people. I want peace.

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