24.3.09
03:30 ● It's my life, but not the way I want it be

Sorry but this is an illogical post. If you're as crazy as me, go ahead(: For those who are not, and still wants to have a normal, healthy brain, you can proceed to the next blog. (((:

I know the title is "duh......". Okay, but I still feel like putting it as my title.
Life is always like that, isn't it? It's just that there are too many things that I'd like to do doesn't suit this society. It's just a matter of whether your luck is good. If it is, you'll like the things or even be good at that thing, that everyone will agree or even encourage you to do; if it's not, then you'll like those things that the society will not accept. And it's for you, to decide which way to go; follow your heart, or your mind(a rational one)? Fortunate people will not need to choose this, but fate will find some things to make life difficult for them. And for the rest, like me, will always have to patiently wait for your heart and mind to finish their fight, before you can make your next move.
As a result, my heart has been seriously wounded. And of course, my mind has been tired out. I don't know how much longer it can control my heart. Maybe till after Poly life's over? Or maybe even shorter? I don't know. Just pray that I wouldn't get crazy before this happens? ...... I'm a crazy girl, and I always is. Hmm... Does it matter if I get a lil' more crazy...?
IDK.
Sometimes I wonder when can I stop my craziness? Maybe SOMEONE can...? Or I'd rather have a SOMEONE who'd make me crazier but accept me as I am?
OOOOOMMMMGOOOOOOOOODNESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!! I know what happened to me, yet again! Why am I getting despo again?=.= I think it's because I've gone near the 'puzzle' recently and there's no school work to distract me. Bad, bad, bad performance. Give me work please... Fate, give it to me! Let me get into crazy campus life, please, with ten hundreds thousands of cherries on top...! I don't like that despo hua chi of me!!!
I want to get on with my life! Though I know that's not "MY LIFE". Please...! 求求你! お願いします!

And now I'm pleading not only Fate, but myself too. Cus' I can hear my heart going, "Please, my mind, don't let me go out of control yet!"

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